Wow. I thought skipping school would benefit my exhaustion from the lack of sleep. It didn't help much. I'm still tired! Darn!
Many had asked me why I couldn't sleep for the past two days. I never did tell them the real reason because I felt like if I were to tell anyone at all, they would call me a stupid, idiotic, stubborn mull. Things like this cannot really be helped. I hate it. I hate it so much. I just had to fall in love because I am love like a madman. Everyone had told me so and I just realized I really do.
See, I told everyone I had gotten over you because I thought if I do, it would aid me in my "quest" to take back that very large chunk you have ripped off. But I tried and tried and tried, all I ended up doing was cry and cry and cry. How can I be such a softy? Girls hate it and I hate it. I'm not passive, just so you readers know, I just am very emotional. Stupid me.
I spent 2 nights awake involuntarily to think of a way to have a last moment with you before I leave. I even wrote it down. I guess its wasted. I think you have an idea what's it like to feel that way, right? But everything still worked out for you. I guess I have to leave this place with a broken heart and a tankful of regrets.
I shan't let this blog post impose any more melancholy on anyone especially myself. I have to be more selfish this time round.
xoxo,
Alfie.
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