Finally!

Mood: Relieved, enlightened!

I'm going to click on your blog and your facebook of the last time in my entire life. See, fate has sealed for everything and I think it's cool now. I no longer believe in faith and will never have it again, or as long as I don't have any targets in sight. I'm tired. Exhausted, in fact. I can't believe how stupid I am to think that it'll happen. I've been neglecting the signs of impossibility since day one but I don't care. I don't care at all anymore. I have my life to lead, I told my mother, and I need to find someone that loves me and not someone that I have to devote all my love and not get anything in return. Not even a simple goodbye, dear friend... I just need to wake up from my deep slumber. 

See, time is ticking by me. It has been almost 5 months since I've started to have an affection for you. But it has to... No. It WILL end. This day forth. I'll love to have old life back. That was I had always been. A rake that knows no boundary. No rules, no bars held. I'm going to love it.

I've finally fallen asleep soundly every night and I'm loving it. Sleeping and waking up the next morning knowing I'll see you is still a drag but hell I'll live!

Until I can take it back, you'll temporarily have my love. 

xoxo,

Alfie