....... oh my.

Mood: Lonely, disappointment, depression all in one.

Enjoying: Loneliness. and the quiet sounds of being loveless




Has been raining! Embrace the rain and step out into the open, I don't think so. Its just too fucking heavy lol.
It just has to rain on this couple of days. When you're feeling blue and all. Raining just makes it worst. I've been thinking bout her(you) like for a long time. The tears can't fall whilst the crowd, and I can't step out in the rain. MY PSP IS AT STAKE! Yea just when its ok to step outside for a bit, family member came home. Damn.


To You: girl, I know times are getting hard on ya. Its ok. Just take a deep breathe, stand up again.

just trying to find out what have I done to deserve the cold shoulders from you. If I've offended you in anyways I'm sorry. I'd do whatever thati is necessary to get back to you, like a friend. I love you girl, I do not wish to see you hurt yourself like that. I hate myself for not being there for you. I'm sorry.



to end it all, a poem, which I call The Last Goodbye.


[Starting the engine of a car,
Sitting in it, watching the stars,
from the sun roof in a night ever so dark..
I believe its the last goodbye,
murmurs the Fallen Boy,
I'd rather be treated like a toy.
as he pens a letter down,
he heard a gentle sound.
its from his stereo,
a song bing called Being Here Right Now (this is a song that I'm currently writing)
thats how he felt, about you, my dear.
thats how he feel over the pass 2 years.
"If I had collected all my tears" he said.
"I'll fucking drown you in them."
upon finishing the last sentence, tears flowed down.
upon hearing this words, absurb as it may sound,
I feel for him. For his sadness is what I feel,
only, my wound could never heal.
every night I look upon the stars,
I join them up.
I see a picture, a girl holding a heart.
Apparently she took them,
never returning.
She took away whats left of us.
the two Fallen ones. With the same goal.
To get to know the girl,
They thought they once know.
hurt as they are.
fearful as they are.
They wish to look at her.
under the walkway's arc.
Its two seperate entities, they all know.
and its 2 hearts having the same kind of hole.
Drilled by love's construction team.
Leaving a hole that so deep.

From me to you girl, I'd pray for you
From me to you girl, I'll hold you when you're feeling blue.
All I need is a chance from you,
so I could be there, even if life is being crude.
for the second Fallen one.
who happens to be me.
He wish to evaporate, just like steam.
for you would not even talk to him, for you would not even look at him.
for you have been him a cold shoulder,
ever since he said accept me girl.
he cried and he bleed,
popped pills just to sleep.
he wish he could call you his darling,
or even just give you a simple ring.
on the telephone.
"oh,its so hard" he lament.
for his misery is never known.
Even if his courage is form beyond,
all he dares to do now is to blog.
about how he feels and how he treats himself.

Like a mannequin he stood there frozen,
like a mannequin he's soul got stolen.
he wish for you to return him his soul,
for he needs to tell you,
what you never know.
Misery is his only company,
for no knew no one bothers if he bleeds.


Copyrighted Alfie (c). ]

yea so its about all that I have.

Have a nice day readers =)