well.. what could I say?

Mood: Part happy part sad.. Mostly sad ;(

Enjoying: Alone time in Atlantica Online! and Hawthorne heights.



Hey guys! Yea went out with chunsen today. Helluva so-so go-out. And went to Kha!r! de douchebag's crib and crash for awhile.. I swear his one helluva lucky kid since no one is around most of the time!..


Yea thing went pretty well xcept the part of me not having enough gold for my pro-ass gear in atlantica (FUCK!!)

[and the part of me thinking bout you, was simply, exasperating. I hate that.. I really wish I could see you again. Like.. again. cuz i've been missing you real badly. It bleeds on the inside. Haven't really laughed to my hearts content. Even to the funnies of comedians. No. Haven't been really fly ass happy.. For I know a day missing you is a day in paradise, and an eternity in disaster zone. Seasons changed from Spring to Winter in an instance, stars don't shine no more. they crash down to earth.. couples don't love each other no more and the world is black. No grass no trees. Just black abyss. Even the snow flakes turned black in the world. I fall down to my knees and pray for you to take a look at me once again. Just a glance. It'd make me feel better.]









{topping it all off, I call this one, The dream of my life.



like the aurora, mysterious yet mesmerizing.
like the rose, beautiful but pricking.
like the sky, captivating yet hard to reach.
like the stars, your eyes glitter,
like tough medcine, the love is bitter.
like a child needs his blanket, I need your love.
like a nation at war, my heart had thwarted,
like the defence line, my will faltered.
I bleed and I cry every single night,
I miss you girl, I miss the sight.
of you being around with me,
jumping like a kid.
I miss the time of talking to you,
which gives me a wide grin.
I lied about me forgetting bout you, girl, this story is simply true.
my undying love have been given to you,
I hope you'd give me yours too.
I wish right now I could die,
die away in this very night.
hope that I could jump,
down from this very height.
if eight floors ain't enough
I'll make it ten.
if ten ain't enough,
I'll kill myself with my own bare hands.
Lord I invoke thee,
bless her when she sleeps.
for her happiness is the best present Thou can give me.
I don't need eternal life,
I don't need to be by Thy side.
for her happiness, is my life.


copyright*(c) Alfie 2008}



thats bout all I'm posting today!






Girl, I hope you'd see this.. ily.