Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps.

Mood: Pathetically pathetic.

Enjoying: The joy of not having adults at home.



Long time since I blogged huh. Yea bloody hell. sucks to be me.. I saw her today.. Was at school's opposite's basketball court. Was having fun with Khairi and a new kid, and thats when I saw her. I was fucking devasted by the fact of her looking away when I tried to make eye contact with her. Wtf have I done wrong? Was it something I said? Or was it something I did? Whatever the reason, she hates me now. I feel like an utter failure. I hate myself for loving her. Ihate myself for the fact that she doesn't even talk to me now..

I miss her calling me her brother, I miss her voice, I miss her jumping around when we talk, and pouting when something happens to her. I miss the time we were still close friends. But now. Its all a fantasy I could only think about. I miss her. Utterly miss her. I tried ramming myself to death on the wall, apparently, it didn't work. Blame it on the media for telling us that we could die when we ram the wall..

Yea heres about all I wanted to say. No poems for today since I'm devastated.. Utterly devastated. last but not least, I just wanna let you know how much you mean to me, dearest.