Mood: I miss your smile..
Hi!
Wow, once again, its raining. Listening to music since my aunt's always hogging to the fucking TV (roll eyes).
It's been a week now. Haven't been chatting with you. How are you? I'm just happy that you've got someone which you could most probably be holding now. What am I if I wouldn't be happy about you being with the one you love the most, right? At the same time, I can't help but want to be the one you love the most.. Guess I'm just stupid to be even want to. Look at me, a guy that isn't charismatic. A guy that has no talent. A guy that has nothing under his name. Where can you find another failure like me? You cannot.
Oh well, nothing much to blog about besides my fucking pensiveness. Sometimes, I feel like a girl. Pussy.. Working on a short story. Gonna have it posted soon. Stay tuned!
Love,
Alfie.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Hi
Mood: Apathetic
Dearest readers!
Hi! Its me again. I'm at Laiguan's crib and it sure is nice to be spending the night away from home feeling self sympathetic and lonely. Of course, it started with a really terrible day. So much for a great Sunday, huh? Oh well. I woke up at 4 in the afternoon with tears in my eyes and it really sucks to sleep on a pillow soaked in tears. Terrible feeling. At least, without the one you love the most, you still know that you have your friends with you.
I just miss you so terribly. When I wanted to speak to you, you wre about to go out. And yea, of course I'm helluva fine with it but I can't help but feel a little depressed. Knowing that you're going out with your boyfriend, I can't help but sink down into my sofa and muster myself for another downpour. Its pouring today in the central-north, and it reflects my mood. A lot, I would say. Knowing that the person you love deeply is with someone he/she love but the person ain't you takes a whole chunk out of you. How you wish it would all just stop.
" When Death to either shall come -- I pray it be first to me. " - Robert Bridge 1844-1930s.
I pray the day that you would turn around and look at me and say: " Yes, I would want to be your girlfriend. " But I know it'll be an eternity and 1 day and also, it will as long as I would take to love you. Perhaps I will love you so so much longer.
It so cold tonight. Are you warm in your bed, darling? Do you need an extra blanket? Do you need another person to hold? Someone warmer with passion? I miss talking to you. I'm sorry I am a mess. I'm sorry I was stupid enough to think you would return the feeling. I'm sorry for wasting your time. If the amount of misses can be converted into cold hard cash, I'll use that money to buy you a mansion.
" I hold it true, whatever befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all- Lord Alfred Tennyson 1809-1892 "
It's easier said than done. Whats it like to lose love? I can write a book on that. In short, it feels like the world is crumbling. The sky could no longer hold its mass and they come crashing down to earth, piece by piece. You could most certainly smell death when you brush across with the one you love and lost. I should move on, yes, I know but a pity. I cannot. Perhaps I don't want to. I wanna give it a try. If I never try, I'll never know. Maybe I have already seen the truth but I don't wanna face it. I'll pretend that its not here with my eyes blinded with a veil.
Nuff' said. I would wish to go to sleep now. I hope when you see this, don't freak out. I'm not an obsessive lover but I crave Thy touch.
Dearest readers!
Hi! Its me again. I'm at Laiguan's crib and it sure is nice to be spending the night away from home feeling self sympathetic and lonely. Of course, it started with a really terrible day. So much for a great Sunday, huh? Oh well. I woke up at 4 in the afternoon with tears in my eyes and it really sucks to sleep on a pillow soaked in tears. Terrible feeling. At least, without the one you love the most, you still know that you have your friends with you.
I just miss you so terribly. When I wanted to speak to you, you wre about to go out. And yea, of course I'm helluva fine with it but I can't help but feel a little depressed. Knowing that you're going out with your boyfriend, I can't help but sink down into my sofa and muster myself for another downpour. Its pouring today in the central-north, and it reflects my mood. A lot, I would say. Knowing that the person you love deeply is with someone he/she love but the person ain't you takes a whole chunk out of you. How you wish it would all just stop.
" When Death to either shall come -- I pray it be first to me. " - Robert Bridge 1844-1930s.
I pray the day that you would turn around and look at me and say: " Yes, I would want to be your girlfriend. " But I know it'll be an eternity and 1 day and also, it will as long as I would take to love you. Perhaps I will love you so so much longer.
It so cold tonight. Are you warm in your bed, darling? Do you need an extra blanket? Do you need another person to hold? Someone warmer with passion? I miss talking to you. I'm sorry I am a mess. I'm sorry I was stupid enough to think you would return the feeling. I'm sorry for wasting your time. If the amount of misses can be converted into cold hard cash, I'll use that money to buy you a mansion.
" I hold it true, whatever befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all- Lord Alfred Tennyson 1809-1892 "
It's easier said than done. Whats it like to lose love? I can write a book on that. In short, it feels like the world is crumbling. The sky could no longer hold its mass and they come crashing down to earth, piece by piece. You could most certainly smell death when you brush across with the one you love and lost. I should move on, yes, I know but a pity. I cannot. Perhaps I don't want to. I wanna give it a try. If I never try, I'll never know. Maybe I have already seen the truth but I don't wanna face it. I'll pretend that its not here with my eyes blinded with a veil.
Nuff' said. I would wish to go to sleep now. I hope when you see this, don't freak out. I'm not an obsessive lover but I crave Thy touch.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Awesome. Nothing's going as planned.
Mood: I'm sick of tired of everything. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Greetings readers.
First of all, Merry x'mas, be it a good one or a fucked up one. Its pretty awesome to know that your friends are with you when you need them. Really. It is. Guess what? Knowing that the girl you like will be there with you is an AWESOME deal. Even better than having the entire world with you. Because he/she had to leave early, you would wanna treasure every minute with he/she, right? You want to send 'em home but ignorant people will insist that they take a cheaper deal of public transport, leaving you to think "Hey! I'm suppose to send he/she home!" You really can't blame that ignorant individual, really. He's just oblivious to his surrounding.. Thats one thing thats not going as planned.
Its steamboat time! Everyone, the ones you know, the ones you don't, are crowding around the steamboat, dumping food and scooping them out of the pot. "Psst", The sound of beer cans opening resonated around. Everyone was having the time of their life. Somehow, you'll be sensing something missing. Somewhere along the way, you might have left something behind. Somehow, something is not in place. Perhaps its your wallet? No. Its in your pocket. Your phone? Its in your hands, for crying out loud. Your MP3 player? Can't be. You're listening to it. Maybe its the sight of the one you think you will get together with. Yes. This is it. Oh well, since he/she is busy, you thought, just let them be. You open a can of beer, finished it, and continued eating. Without the one you want to be with around, thats the second thing that did not go as planned.
You text them, hoping they could accompany you since everyone is not at home. You're alone. You want someone to accompany you. They tell you they have something on. You smiled and fixed another day. You waited. And they finally told you its okay to fix it at 2 days later. You feel happy. Thats went as planned.
You got home, you got on your instant messaging account. You hope to see them online, and they are. They are online, just sitting there. You double click on their list. You chatted with them and you double confirmed the date. And you felt hopeful. You feel that you will stand a chance with them and you went ahead to drop a hint, or at least to find out their marital status. You asked: "So, I assume you ain't got a boyfriend or girlfriend right?" and they replied "Sort of." You got caught off guard. You staggered. Your pupils widen. You break into a cold sweat. Then you go, sounding as happy as you possibly can: " HAHA! So I assume you're gonna be together anytime soon?" and they reply: " most probably after my exams." your world came crashing down on you. You just can't brace yourself, you fell on your knees. You tried composing yourself. You try to shake the feeling off. Too bad, they linger. Without saying goodbye, you logged off, jumped into your bed, wishing you could sleep it away. Thats the last thing that has not went as planned. You give up.
"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else."
Bloody as hell true! By knowing she love someone else it already could tear you apart. What more watching them do what you did with them.
Alright, enough of my shit. I'll suck it up and move on! Talk to y'all next time!
Greetings readers.
First of all, Merry x'mas, be it a good one or a fucked up one. Its pretty awesome to know that your friends are with you when you need them. Really. It is. Guess what? Knowing that the girl you like will be there with you is an AWESOME deal. Even better than having the entire world with you. Because he/she had to leave early, you would wanna treasure every minute with he/she, right? You want to send 'em home but ignorant people will insist that they take a cheaper deal of public transport, leaving you to think "Hey! I'm suppose to send he/she home!" You really can't blame that ignorant individual, really. He's just oblivious to his surrounding.. Thats one thing thats not going as planned.
Its steamboat time! Everyone, the ones you know, the ones you don't, are crowding around the steamboat, dumping food and scooping them out of the pot. "Psst", The sound of beer cans opening resonated around. Everyone was having the time of their life. Somehow, you'll be sensing something missing. Somewhere along the way, you might have left something behind. Somehow, something is not in place. Perhaps its your wallet? No. Its in your pocket. Your phone? Its in your hands, for crying out loud. Your MP3 player? Can't be. You're listening to it. Maybe its the sight of the one you think you will get together with. Yes. This is it. Oh well, since he/she is busy, you thought, just let them be. You open a can of beer, finished it, and continued eating. Without the one you want to be with around, thats the second thing that did not go as planned.
You text them, hoping they could accompany you since everyone is not at home. You're alone. You want someone to accompany you. They tell you they have something on. You smiled and fixed another day. You waited. And they finally told you its okay to fix it at 2 days later. You feel happy. Thats went as planned.
You got home, you got on your instant messaging account. You hope to see them online, and they are. They are online, just sitting there. You double click on their list. You chatted with them and you double confirmed the date. And you felt hopeful. You feel that you will stand a chance with them and you went ahead to drop a hint, or at least to find out their marital status. You asked: "So, I assume you ain't got a boyfriend or girlfriend right?" and they replied "Sort of." You got caught off guard. You staggered. Your pupils widen. You break into a cold sweat. Then you go, sounding as happy as you possibly can: " HAHA! So I assume you're gonna be together anytime soon?" and they reply: " most probably after my exams." your world came crashing down on you. You just can't brace yourself, you fell on your knees. You tried composing yourself. You try to shake the feeling off. Too bad, they linger. Without saying goodbye, you logged off, jumped into your bed, wishing you could sleep it away. Thats the last thing that has not went as planned. You give up.
"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else."
Bloody as hell true! By knowing she love someone else it already could tear you apart. What more watching them do what you did with them.
Alright, enough of my shit. I'll suck it up and move on! Talk to y'all next time!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Mood: Normal. Apathetic.
Hi, my fellow readers!
Just came back from supper with my gramma. Its happy to know that she has something to do to kill time other than watching TV and rotting.
On my way out to meet my granny, I saw 2 couples, a chinese - malay couple and an indian or paki couple quarelling. I don't exactly know what was going on. At the back of my head, I was thinking, "Hey, perhaps both of you should sit down and talk bout stuff instead of yelling your lungs out at each other." I mean, with a calm state of mind, what can not be accomplished? And this, again, gave me this urge to tell them: "Hey, look, people out there are more pathetic than you are, take a fucking look around and see the lost and lonesome souls that are crying."
Have you ever wondered why some hateful people can have a partner in his or her life while you simply are just sitting here in the hall, thinking about when you'll be attached and stuff. Well don't! Because he or she could jolly well be outside your door waiting, or she could be on her way to you, by somehow got lost amid the crowd, looking for your face. Don't give up. They will be here someday. Just you wait.
"This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know up front, this is not a love story. - 500 days of summer."
Of course, this is usually what happens in your life. But have you ever tried starting you own love story? Perhaps thats what many of us to do. Boy likes girl, girl returns feeling to boy, they kiss, they break up, they got back together. This is a script, a plot. Its a plot written halfway. Have you ever thought of it BEYOND getting back together? Like Marriage. Perhaps divorce? I don't know. Maybe humans will never be as good as God in every way. Even in scripting a story. Every of our lives are a play. And our existance is for God's entertainment.
"Tom, don't go! You're still my best friend!" - Summer, 500 days of summer.
I don't know about you, but I sure hate this sentence. I don't wanna be your best friend when I said I want to be your boyfriend. Usually, they will be your best friend, yes, but they are your best friend that avoids you. Ouch, right?
I sure hope my posts leave you thinking and I would like a response from you guys! Just leave your name and tell me what I should improve on!
Love,
Alfie(:
Hi, my fellow readers!
Just came back from supper with my gramma. Its happy to know that she has something to do to kill time other than watching TV and rotting.
On my way out to meet my granny, I saw 2 couples, a chinese - malay couple and an indian or paki couple quarelling. I don't exactly know what was going on. At the back of my head, I was thinking, "Hey, perhaps both of you should sit down and talk bout stuff instead of yelling your lungs out at each other." I mean, with a calm state of mind, what can not be accomplished? And this, again, gave me this urge to tell them: "Hey, look, people out there are more pathetic than you are, take a fucking look around and see the lost and lonesome souls that are crying."
Have you ever wondered why some hateful people can have a partner in his or her life while you simply are just sitting here in the hall, thinking about when you'll be attached and stuff. Well don't! Because he or she could jolly well be outside your door waiting, or she could be on her way to you, by somehow got lost amid the crowd, looking for your face. Don't give up. They will be here someday. Just you wait.
"This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know up front, this is not a love story. - 500 days of summer."
Of course, this is usually what happens in your life. But have you ever tried starting you own love story? Perhaps thats what many of us to do. Boy likes girl, girl returns feeling to boy, they kiss, they break up, they got back together. This is a script, a plot. Its a plot written halfway. Have you ever thought of it BEYOND getting back together? Like Marriage. Perhaps divorce? I don't know. Maybe humans will never be as good as God in every way. Even in scripting a story. Every of our lives are a play. And our existance is for God's entertainment.
"Tom, don't go! You're still my best friend!" - Summer, 500 days of summer.
I don't know about you, but I sure hate this sentence. I don't wanna be your best friend when I said I want to be your boyfriend. Usually, they will be your best friend, yes, but they are your best friend that avoids you. Ouch, right?
I sure hope my posts leave you thinking and I would like a response from you guys! Just leave your name and tell me what I should improve on!
Love,
Alfie(:
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Nope nothing.
Mood: Sour.
Enjoying: tang yuan! (love)
Hi once again. Here to rant about stuff. Feeling SO much again at 1:32. I really love this blog. I can talk about stuff I have never told before to anyone. Its like my little exposed secret diary. I don't post bout stuff I do with my pals, with my nerfers and with my computer but I do post what I feel. It's after midnight and well, its usually my time of the day, or night, when I'm not sleeping, that I look around me. In the home I've stayed in for 17 years. In the pictures in my picture album. My mother, my father I once knew, my granny and her now. My great-aunt and how she is now. Kinda brings the sour to my nose to realise how much I've let slipped by.
Well, grammy's watching TV and I'm here posting this. Still, I can't help shedding tears. Her aged face only can age even further. Her hands coarse from all the chores, the time she hugged me when I cry alone in my room. The times she yelled at me for leaving my light on after I went to the bathroom. I start to want them back. Grand aunt. The one that dotes me the most yet gets on my nerve the most. I know she nag and ask all too much question because she cares for me, but I can't help but lose it at her sometimes. I feel really apologetic. Mom. A strong 36 year old lady that single handedly raised a kid. Shes sleeping now but I so wish she could just give me one tight embrace right now. I miss the time she would play with me and sing me songs so as to stop me from crying. Seeing her coming home every night with the super tired look, I wanna hug her and tell her "mom, thank you for everything. I love you." its just these simple words yet I feel so hard to let them out. If my teeth are bars from the cells, I would willingly take them all out. Dad. You're a fucking jerk but yes, I miss you. I miss the time you would sit around in the living room with me, watching TV, telling me to work hard to be a member of the SWAT. I am working on it.. I'll show you I can do it. I'll get into the SWAT, I'll get into the Spetznaz, I will get into the SAS. I will prove it to you that without you, I'm still the Man you wanted me to be. And I really do feel like breaking your face for the number of times you made Mom cry. When I left the home we once shared, trust me, I kept looking back. I wish you would race out and hold mom's hand and tell her to not leave you. And that you promise to be a better man.
I will never get closer to my family ever. As it is broken, I wanna break free. I'm no longer a kid. I wanna strike it out on my own.
Enough of family. Thinking about the one that I adore the most. You, girl. You.. I always hope to see you online when ever I get online at 1.00 PM. You have your life yes but I really miss talking to you. You never cease to cheer me up. Even a simple smiling emoticon will make me smile ever so much, ever so hard. You weren't talking much to me yesterday, and I've got to admit. I got paranoid. I got sad. But oh well. Theres a stigma in me after the previous episode I had with another girl that left her prints in my life. I'm afraid to start anything with anyone because I don't want anything to end like the hurricane.
"In my prayers, I prayed for God to let me be with you. He made me the tree that is at the pathway that you walk by everyday. I see you walk by, holding the hand of another guy. My dear, the falling leaves are not the signs of autumn and romance, its just the fragments of my breaking heart."
To the girl that left something in me: I thank you for making me who I am today. Yes, I did hate you before, I hate you for taking my guts away to love anyone again. I only got paranoid because I care too much. Well, now I've learn to not smother someone like I did.
Maybe its this time that a boy change to a man. Maybe its time where leave had fallen, and the biting cold challenge my will. And pass this, it will be spring. I will start blooming flowers, and soon, I will bear fruits. My children. They are gonna experience the same thing as I did, and I, promise to be a father than the one I have, will have this very post to tell them what I have been through. I've never regretted being me and I never will.
Its 2am now and everyones asleep. Now I can finally cry without a care. This is the time when you have to let everything out at one go. Its now or never.
Enjoying: tang yuan! (love)
Hi once again. Here to rant about stuff. Feeling SO much again at 1:32. I really love this blog. I can talk about stuff I have never told before to anyone. Its like my little exposed secret diary. I don't post bout stuff I do with my pals, with my nerfers and with my computer but I do post what I feel. It's after midnight and well, its usually my time of the day, or night, when I'm not sleeping, that I look around me. In the home I've stayed in for 17 years. In the pictures in my picture album. My mother, my father I once knew, my granny and her now. My great-aunt and how she is now. Kinda brings the sour to my nose to realise how much I've let slipped by.
Well, grammy's watching TV and I'm here posting this. Still, I can't help shedding tears. Her aged face only can age even further. Her hands coarse from all the chores, the time she hugged me when I cry alone in my room. The times she yelled at me for leaving my light on after I went to the bathroom. I start to want them back. Grand aunt. The one that dotes me the most yet gets on my nerve the most. I know she nag and ask all too much question because she cares for me, but I can't help but lose it at her sometimes. I feel really apologetic. Mom. A strong 36 year old lady that single handedly raised a kid. Shes sleeping now but I so wish she could just give me one tight embrace right now. I miss the time she would play with me and sing me songs so as to stop me from crying. Seeing her coming home every night with the super tired look, I wanna hug her and tell her "mom, thank you for everything. I love you." its just these simple words yet I feel so hard to let them out. If my teeth are bars from the cells, I would willingly take them all out. Dad. You're a fucking jerk but yes, I miss you. I miss the time you would sit around in the living room with me, watching TV, telling me to work hard to be a member of the SWAT. I am working on it.. I'll show you I can do it. I'll get into the SWAT, I'll get into the Spetznaz, I will get into the SAS. I will prove it to you that without you, I'm still the Man you wanted me to be. And I really do feel like breaking your face for the number of times you made Mom cry. When I left the home we once shared, trust me, I kept looking back. I wish you would race out and hold mom's hand and tell her to not leave you. And that you promise to be a better man.
I will never get closer to my family ever. As it is broken, I wanna break free. I'm no longer a kid. I wanna strike it out on my own.
Enough of family. Thinking about the one that I adore the most. You, girl. You.. I always hope to see you online when ever I get online at 1.00 PM. You have your life yes but I really miss talking to you. You never cease to cheer me up. Even a simple smiling emoticon will make me smile ever so much, ever so hard. You weren't talking much to me yesterday, and I've got to admit. I got paranoid. I got sad. But oh well. Theres a stigma in me after the previous episode I had with another girl that left her prints in my life. I'm afraid to start anything with anyone because I don't want anything to end like the hurricane.
"In my prayers, I prayed for God to let me be with you. He made me the tree that is at the pathway that you walk by everyday. I see you walk by, holding the hand of another guy. My dear, the falling leaves are not the signs of autumn and romance, its just the fragments of my breaking heart."
To the girl that left something in me: I thank you for making me who I am today. Yes, I did hate you before, I hate you for taking my guts away to love anyone again. I only got paranoid because I care too much. Well, now I've learn to not smother someone like I did.
Maybe its this time that a boy change to a man. Maybe its time where leave had fallen, and the biting cold challenge my will. And pass this, it will be spring. I will start blooming flowers, and soon, I will bear fruits. My children. They are gonna experience the same thing as I did, and I, promise to be a father than the one I have, will have this very post to tell them what I have been through. I've never regretted being me and I never will.
Its 2am now and everyones asleep. Now I can finally cry without a care. This is the time when you have to let everything out at one go. Its now or never.
God.
Mood: Cold and lonesome.
Dear readers,
I apologise for not having any poetry posted up.. Indeed, there are no good reads here but I certainly hope my writting, written with emotion and realisation, will be appreciated by someone.
I spend the entire night awake, looking through my new scope at the sky. No, its not a telescope, but a hunting scope. Well, if you want to, I'm gonna shoot the moon down for you, But it is if only you were to say okay to my proposal that I might give anytime.
Sorry for the all too emotional posts. Waking up all night thinking about stuff can really make one feel a lot more than he should.
Have you ever felt that God was being unfair to you? Have you ever stayed up for 2 days, thinking about anything else other than feeling fine, sleep at night and hoping to hold the hand of the one you love everyday? After watching 海派甜心, I really feel that we should really send a petition to God and request for him to let us write a script of our own life so as to let us live our lives as a really happy and carefree person. Rejection is fine but knowing the fact that she might just walk away from you for good, it makes you wanna put a bullet in your own head and end it all.
"If you want to dump someone, you've got to be able to withstand the pain and terror of being dumped." These words means so much to me. I am sorry for what I had done to you before, and I've learnt my lesson. I have quit being a philantrophist for a long time but somehow, fate, God and other power of an upper level is punishing me so hard.
"For as long as you like someone, you'll take an equal time to forget." Yet another quote that touched me. Its been more than a year now. You should've forgotten about me. If you haven't I'm always here. Come talk to me. I'm always here. End this misery for me. Tell Cupid that I've had my punishment. Please. Just end it for me.
How long has it been since you've talk to someone about your problems? No. Not someone.. Yourself. For me, its every now and then when I feel sad and stuff. But never as frequently as these 2 weeks. Maybe I'm being self sympathetic. Maybe I'm being dramatic. But how often do you feel that your miserable not when you want to, but when it comes knocking? I've fallen for someone I shouldn't and it really makes it feel like someone's dripping vinegar into my heart. How can I move on? Maybe I can never.
Alright. Sorry for the rant but its because I really need an outlet. And I would really wish that you would share with me your experience so as to let myself grow up. Just comment on my post!
Love,
Alfie.
Dear readers,
I apologise for not having any poetry posted up.. Indeed, there are no good reads here but I certainly hope my writting, written with emotion and realisation, will be appreciated by someone.
I spend the entire night awake, looking through my new scope at the sky. No, its not a telescope, but a hunting scope. Well, if you want to, I'm gonna shoot the moon down for you, But it is if only you were to say okay to my proposal that I might give anytime.
Sorry for the all too emotional posts. Waking up all night thinking about stuff can really make one feel a lot more than he should.
Have you ever felt that God was being unfair to you? Have you ever stayed up for 2 days, thinking about anything else other than feeling fine, sleep at night and hoping to hold the hand of the one you love everyday? After watching 海派甜心, I really feel that we should really send a petition to God and request for him to let us write a script of our own life so as to let us live our lives as a really happy and carefree person. Rejection is fine but knowing the fact that she might just walk away from you for good, it makes you wanna put a bullet in your own head and end it all.
"If you want to dump someone, you've got to be able to withstand the pain and terror of being dumped." These words means so much to me. I am sorry for what I had done to you before, and I've learnt my lesson. I have quit being a philantrophist for a long time but somehow, fate, God and other power of an upper level is punishing me so hard.
"For as long as you like someone, you'll take an equal time to forget." Yet another quote that touched me. Its been more than a year now. You should've forgotten about me. If you haven't I'm always here. Come talk to me. I'm always here. End this misery for me. Tell Cupid that I've had my punishment. Please. Just end it for me.
How long has it been since you've talk to someone about your problems? No. Not someone.. Yourself. For me, its every now and then when I feel sad and stuff. But never as frequently as these 2 weeks. Maybe I'm being self sympathetic. Maybe I'm being dramatic. But how often do you feel that your miserable not when you want to, but when it comes knocking? I've fallen for someone I shouldn't and it really makes it feel like someone's dripping vinegar into my heart. How can I move on? Maybe I can never.
Alright. Sorry for the rant but its because I really need an outlet. And I would really wish that you would share with me your experience so as to let myself grow up. Just comment on my post!
Love,
Alfie.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
hmmm yea.. perhaps.
Mood: Feeling excited, yet bored and tired.
Hey readers! As usual, mornings, when you're at home, is indeed boring as ABC. But since I'm gonna shoot some foos' later, I'm sorta excited! Yeppers. Been awhile since I've wrote any good stuff here on in my Tumblr. Yep. I promise updates tonight! Leave me a tag, people :)
Hey readers! As usual, mornings, when you're at home, is indeed boring as ABC. But since I'm gonna shoot some foos' later, I'm sorta excited! Yeppers. Been awhile since I've wrote any good stuff here on in my Tumblr. Yep. I promise updates tonight! Leave me a tag, people :)
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