God.

Mood: Cold and lonesome.

Dear readers,

I apologise for not having any poetry posted up.. Indeed, there are no good reads here but I certainly hope my writting, written with emotion and realisation, will be appreciated by someone.

I spend the entire night awake, looking through my new scope at the sky. No, its not a telescope, but a hunting scope. Well, if you want to, I'm gonna shoot the moon down for you, But it is if only you were to say okay to my proposal that I might give anytime.

Sorry for the all too emotional posts. Waking up all night thinking about stuff can really make one feel a lot more than he should.

Have you ever felt that God was being unfair to you? Have you ever stayed up for 2 days, thinking about anything else other than feeling fine, sleep at night and hoping to hold the hand of the one you love everyday? After watching 海派甜心, I really feel that we should really send a petition to God and request for him to let us write a script of our own life so as to let us live our lives as a really happy and carefree person. Rejection is fine but knowing the fact that she might just walk away from you for good, it makes you wanna put a bullet in your own head and end it all.

"If you want to dump someone, you've got to be able to withstand the pain and terror of being dumped." These words means so much to me. I am sorry for what I had done to you before, and I've learnt my lesson. I have quit being a philantrophist for a long time but somehow, fate, God and other power of an upper level is punishing me so hard.

"For as long as you like someone, you'll take an equal time to forget." Yet another quote that touched me. Its been more than a year now. You should've forgotten about me. If you haven't I'm always here. Come talk to me. I'm always here. End this misery for me. Tell Cupid that I've had my punishment. Please. Just end it for me.

How long has it been since you've talk to someone about your problems? No. Not someone.. Yourself. For me, its every now and then when I feel sad and stuff. But never as frequently as these 2 weeks. Maybe I'm being self sympathetic. Maybe I'm being dramatic. But how often do you feel that your miserable not when you want to, but when it comes knocking? I've fallen for someone I shouldn't and it really makes it feel like someone's dripping vinegar into my heart. How can I move on? Maybe I can never.

Alright. Sorry for the rant but its because I really need an outlet. And I would really wish that you would share with me your experience so as to let myself grow up. Just comment on my post!

Love,
Alfie.