Hey.

Mood: Soccer Fever! And am missing you.

Hello people. Its 12:47 and I'm waiting for England Vs US to start. HEE! I'm not a soccer fan but seeing the Brits play excites me. I don't know why.

Well, first off, I would like to apologize to you because something overcame me as I blog tat post of mine out. and I feel terribly bad ever since. It is like the gap has been dug even further and widened. I will leap across it even if it means taking my life away. Because I need you. I need you so terribly badly. I'm so terribly sorry. I on;y want the best for you and I love to see you smile. Whatever it is that makes you happy makes me happy too. Of course, a little sadness will bite now and then but I'll put a smile as much as I can because I know you'd love to see me smile too.

Well, I have no idea why, it seems like I have fallen in love all over again and I'm happy with that somehow. And you being my subject of affection makes it all good.

I've read your blog and that latest post made me cry. Like really hard just now. Its been a long while since I've weeped and I'm sure this was a pretty hard one. I'm sorry that I've said all those bullshit and I really really want you to continue to read my blog. Because its the only way of which I can talk to you. There are so many things I cannot say to you, be it on MSN, text messages, phone, let alone in the face. I just hope you'll just continue to read and read and read because I dedicate every post to you. You're my heroine.

Thank you for teaching me the meaning of "Letting Go", because I will certainly master it and take things easily and let things go.

Sometimes, when you care about those around you more than you care for me, I feel extremely down. You might not know it, but everything you do, I take it into my heart and I keep it. Because you mean so much to me. I'm not as strong as you think I am, dear, because I am not at all strong. You're a tofu on the outside, but I am a tofu on the inside. I bruise way too easily... I don't like to whine but I have to tell you because I cannot always fake a smile. It gets tiring, you know? (now this is something I cannot tell you straight!) It is not that I cannot take jokes but sometimes, you hurt me unknowingly. I'm sorry for telling you all these and I know it may make you angry. But I have to tell you somehow.