why?

Mood: Terrible.

Hi people. I wonder why when I start to post on my blog or start listening to songs that are kinda lovely-ish yet sad at the same time, something HAS to happen that will push my mood down the cliffs. When I hear you cry, my heart sank to the bottom. I need not say more than this because you already knew the state of mind I had when we chatted just now.

For every drop of tears you shed, ten drops of blood trickle down my heart. For every time you cry, my heart tells me he wants to die. If you would open my chest now, you'll see my heart, yes, but its fragmenting all over. I'm sorry that I am not the person that you wanna be with when you're feeling low. I know where I stand, and I will soon stop pestering you.

"In true love, there is never a happy ending. Because true love doesn't have an end. - Unknown."

I saw this today in someone's blog. I think Howard showed it to me, and right now, it made SO much sense. Because it doesn't have one. Dear, because he had ended this, he had showed you that his love isn't true. Not at all.

Anyway, why the hell am I being so crazy? I think I need to seek help.

Alfie.

I just don't know why I can't be like him. I love you so but yet, I'm receiving treatment from you as though I'm just another guy that likes you. The world may think I'm lying but as long as you and I know its true, it is all that matters. I crave to hold you like how he had, and I know it is so distant. I'm sorry, but I shan't be such a guy no more.